I was playing CS:GO on Steam. The game’s concept is that there are 5 counter-terrorists and 5 terrorist. Terrorist are trying to bomb a target and counter-terrorists have to stop them. You play 15 rounds as an anti terrorist and after that, teams switch and you play as a terrorist for 15 rounds.
In the game first we were anti-terrorists. I had 4 teammates that I hadn’t met before. We were good. It looked like the game was easy and I talked a bit with 2 of them. The other 2 were not that chatty. They asked me where I am from and I said that I am from Turkey and I learned that they are from a Northern European country. They were university students like me and we talked like this for a while.
After that, we became terrorists and we lost a few rounds but were still ahead.
After a few rounds, I noticed that the bomb was on me, every round. Normally, it is not like that but you can give the bomb to another teammate, so they were giving to me.
At first, I didn’t say anything but after a while, I said “ Why are you guys giving the bomb to me, every round? Why are you not planting the bomb?” You have to play a bit safer when you have the bomb and that is something that I don’t want to do for 15 rounds.
One of them answered “ Dude, you are Muslim.” and the others laughed at this.
The first thing I can think about was the movie called “My name is Khan.”
I didn’t even tell them that I was Muslim, I just told them I am from Turkey and prejudgment did the rest. They thought I am a Muslim and they gave me the bomb every fucking round.
After getting rid of that shocked feeling I said “So, do you think that more than 1.5 billion Muslim people are all terrorists?”
Same guy replied very calmly “ Yeah.”
I can’t explain my disappointment. I shot him in the head at the beginning of the round and left the game. Yes, friendly fire was on and you can shoot your teammates, there is a penalty for that though.
We were the same at that moment. We were on the same team, we were university students, we were playing and enjoying the same game. In that game, the only difference was the places we live. I didn’t even tell my religion but they tried to predict and judged me to be a terrorist.
We had lots of similarities but one difference and they focused on the differences but this was not the saddest thing.
I learned that I wasn’t the first one who experienced something like this.
This was the saddest thing I’ve ever experienced. The moment, I was accused of terrorism by someone who has no idea about who I am.
Yes, I am a Muslim and I am not a terrorist.
Originally written by Yusuf H. Durkaya, a student of Marmara University, Turkey.